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It’s going to hurt

As they lie there in you bed
You admire every single fault,
You can feel the love flooding your insides
Forcing you to smile, that god damn smile.
That’s when you realise,
You’re attached,
You’re attached to someone who could so easily leave you..
This single thought alone hurts,
Not only mentally, but physically
You feel your heart sinking and your head drowning in this thought.
You start to question everything
You have already had your heart broken
Could you go through all them sleepless nights?
The painful mornings where you’re heart breaks all over again?
Would you do it to yourself?
Are they worth that?

It’s going to hurt if you leave.
*when you leave.

"When she leaves you will find yourself laying in bed one night, unable to sleep so you flip over your pillow to find a long strand of hair. The only girl who’s ever been in your bed was her, and it belongs to her. Your heart will feel heavy and your bones begin to break one by one when you look at it but you just keep it there and turn the pillow over again. It’s better to have the tiniest piece of her existence near you instead of nothing at all. When she leaves she will take the flowers she planted deep in your soul, and nothing will be left but dead leaves, I guess it’s better than nothing at all. When she leaves you won’t even be able to look at your bare skin without picturing her’s against it, you won’t be able to feel anything softer than her lips when they met yours. When she leaves you’ll find her remnants washed up in your room like worms on a sidewalk after it rains. You’ll stumble across bobby pins, and scrunchies, how could someone have so many god damn bobby pins? When she leaves your favorite sweater will smell like her, and you won’t be able to picture anything but how she looked when she was curled up in your arms every winter evening. When she leaves you’ll think that love is not real, it can’t be real, because the girl you planned forever with just left you in the dark. She was your one and only light in a world of dull black, but she’s gone now. Ever since she left, you feel gone now, too."

i.c. // when she leaves (via delicatepoetry)


(Source:, via feellng)



I want to write,
but I have no idea what to say.
I guess my heart
and my head
are too wrapped up
in you
your name
to think of anything else.
I want to write of
the sky and the wind
and how the
tulips seem to smile
on a spring day.
But all I can think about
is how you got goosebumps
on your skin
where the wind kissed you,
and how I was so jelous,
because it got to touch you
and I didn’t.
And it hurts
remembering how
you gave me a tulip
when we walked through
my grandmothers garden.
I don’t like tulips anymore.
I want to write of
ocean water, crystal blue,
and of girly things
like lipstick and perfume.
But all I can think about
is how we went
to the beach last summer
and you gave me
my first kiss
under the bridge.
And it hurts
remembering how
you bought me
vanilla perfume
because it was your favorite.
I don’t wear it anymore.
I want to write
but I have nothing to say
because I miss you so much
and I wish,
that just this once,
you would have stayed.

Poem for: “moving on and missing someone.”


letters-2-myself (via letters-2-myself)


Thats me 😥 on We Heart It.

Ah love on We Heart It.

Ah love on We Heart It.

1. When he starts distancing himself from you, do not restring bridges with your own sinew. You will find yourself two months later coming unraveled, coming undone. You will find he has left you in the places he has visited and in the hair of the girls he has imagined kissing. You will find yourself splatterpainted on the walls where while drunk he confessed all of your secrets to his college friends. You will be crying on the floor, surrounded by the parts of you he has stepped on, and he will look you in the eyes and ask you to clean up the mess.

2. When she cannot get through the words “I love you” without her eyes flicking to the side or her tongue slurring or her mouth pressing in at the edges: do not assume it is your fault. Do not think that you have yet again pushed away someone amazing. You have not. Sometimes people knock on their bones and find themselves hollow. You were the only way they felt momentarily whole, do not empty yourself to fill up their soul. Do not shatter into pieces trying to perfect yourself. You do not need to be glass to turn light into rainbows. You are a person, not their prism.

3. Do not let them hold you against their body if you know they do not cherish every second they are in contact with your skin. I know it feels as if you are breaking your own spine, but tear yourself away from them. Know that the something beautiful you had was already fading. Know that in the end you did the only thing you could. Sometimes people grow apart. Even trees do it.

4. Cry. Want them back.

5. Cry. Do not take them back.

6. In the following months, you will rediscover what it means to be alone. You will sit and stare at a ceiling and hate yourself and hate the world and cry about everything because everything hurts. You will wonder if it could have gotten better if you’d just been a little different, if the timing had worked out, if if if. Do not worry about this. Nothing would have changed the reality that the person you were in love with had stopped loving you somewhere along the line, whether it was in the middle of a conversation or while driving under a bridge or when they made eye contact with someone new and wonderful. It doesn’t matter. Stop wasting your time on them. You don’t need to stop your story just because they are no longer a main character. Do not take back what has already poisoned you. Instead start healing and start healing soon.

7. Take yourself back. Bring out the mop, the broom, the magic wand. Glue where needs to be glued, put up new paint, turn off the lights in places that are too hot to touch. Touch your toes. Touch your hair. Touch a dog. Touch the grass, touch the telephone, do not call him. Touch base with your mom. Touch another person with no love in your heart, touch another person and mean every second of it. Believe in yourself even if you don’t believe in love. It’s okay. There is nothing wrong with being alone. You are the best company you’ll ever know. It’s okay. It’s okay. You’re gonna be okay and none of this was ever your fault. Sometimes people just fall out of love. It’s okay. It’s okay. You’ll one day discover you didn’t need them anyway.


"How to stop loving someone who does not love you." /// r.i.d (via inkskinned)